I just thought I would share some of my thoughts that have been running through my head lately.
On January 30th at 4:30 pm my friend Chris Neil Sperry got in a car accident and died instantly. He was at a stop sign turning left when a red truck hit him on the drivers side of the car. It was a Sunday afternoon and he was leaving our Singles Ward to go home to his family (He had blessed and partaken of the sacrament, as well as attended all his meetings that day). This past week has been really hard for me, but also a time where I have been able to take a step back and take a look at my life. Chris was an amazing man. At his viewing and funeral everyone talked about how he was always smiling and how he was ALWAYS nice to everyone. I honestly can't remember ever being around him and him say something rude or mean about anyone else. He was a person I loved to be around and he was so easy to get a long with. Looking back on HIS life it makes me want to be a better person. I feel like I owe it to HIM and to ME.
For the past year or so I feel like I have been in a Limbo kind of. I do have a job so I work full time but that's not what I want to do anymore. I want to be a normal college student. I want to move out, and go to school during the day and get a part time job. I want to whole college experience. I honestly feel like I skipped a whole chapter of my life after high school. I took classes at night after work but it's just not working for me anymore. I have been scared to go to school because I don't have the money for it and I am afraid of student loans. But after what happened to Chris, I want to LIVE. I want to live my life the way I want to. I want to have fun, and date, and be a student at a college and MOVE OUT! Don't get me wrong I love my family and I would miss them if I moved out, but I really think I need to move out.
Something else I learned about Chris this week was that before his mission (which was to Mexico) he got a Spanish Book of Mormon and read it about 3 times before he even went into the MTC. What a great example. I have been a slacker in that area lately, but again it is something I want to change. I want to grow spiritually this year and I want to do that by reading MY scriptures everyday and praying ON MY KNEES morning and night. That is what Chris did, and that is what I want to do too.
There are a lot of things I need to change in my life. I think that it is sad that it takes a friend to die for me to look at myself and realize that I need to change.
On January 30th at 4:30 pm my friend Chris Neil Sperry got in a car accident and died instantly. He was at a stop sign turning left when a red truck hit him on the drivers side of the car. It was a Sunday afternoon and he was leaving our Singles Ward to go home to his family (He had blessed and partaken of the sacrament, as well as attended all his meetings that day). This past week has been really hard for me, but also a time where I have been able to take a step back and take a look at my life. Chris was an amazing man. At his viewing and funeral everyone talked about how he was always smiling and how he was ALWAYS nice to everyone. I honestly can't remember ever being around him and him say something rude or mean about anyone else. He was a person I loved to be around and he was so easy to get a long with. Looking back on HIS life it makes me want to be a better person. I feel like I owe it to HIM and to ME.
For the past year or so I feel like I have been in a Limbo kind of. I do have a job so I work full time but that's not what I want to do anymore. I want to be a normal college student. I want to move out, and go to school during the day and get a part time job. I want to whole college experience. I honestly feel like I skipped a whole chapter of my life after high school. I took classes at night after work but it's just not working for me anymore. I have been scared to go to school because I don't have the money for it and I am afraid of student loans. But after what happened to Chris, I want to LIVE. I want to live my life the way I want to. I want to have fun, and date, and be a student at a college and MOVE OUT! Don't get me wrong I love my family and I would miss them if I moved out, but I really think I need to move out.
Something else I learned about Chris this week was that before his mission (which was to Mexico) he got a Spanish Book of Mormon and read it about 3 times before he even went into the MTC. What a great example. I have been a slacker in that area lately, but again it is something I want to change. I want to grow spiritually this year and I want to do that by reading MY scriptures everyday and praying ON MY KNEES morning and night. That is what Chris did, and that is what I want to do too.
There are a lot of things I need to change in my life. I think that it is sad that it takes a friend to die for me to look at myself and realize that I need to change.
1 comment:
Audrey...I am sorry to hear about your friend. I know it is difficult but what a blessing the gospel is to help you understand and get through the loss of someone close to you. I think that whatever you put your mind to you will be great at. I also agree...you should live life. Being in college has some fond memories for me. I learned to be more responsible, made mistakes, enjoyed time with friends and grew as a person. Do what is best for you!
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